a belly full of chocolate

i am continually amazed at how stubbornly life manages to just keep on truckin’ on around me even at times when perhaps i’d prefer it chilled out and went into hybernation for a while. work is crazy,time is short, and all i’d really like to do is just be able to spend the first 6 months of this year plodding away at home at my music and a few good books…at least that’s what i’m trying to do…but other things and people are moving so fast around me that it’s beginning to _freak_me_out_a_little_.

my other big gripe at the moment is with people being all stoney-faced these days. why is it that kids can be so free with their emotions and seem all the more alive for it, while i find myself trying to disect the minutiae of facial responses offered to me in order to understand what people are thinking. it’s like in terms of communication we’ve regressed back to being babies again!

are you hungry? sad? do you need changing? aaaaargh!